Beth Holloway has once again pleaded face-to-face with Joran van der Sloot to give her information about her daughter Natalee, who went missing in 2005 in Aruba. Holloway, her voice shaking, gave van der Sloot a candy bar when they met recently in a Peru prison where he is being held in the slaying of Stephany Flores, a 21-year-old Peruvian woman, this summer.
A Dutch television station taped the meeting, which comes as authorities test a jawbone recently discovered in Aruba that could be part of Natalee Holloway's remains.
Beth Holloway has tried previously to persuade van der Sloot to tell her where her daughter might be, meeting with him in person. He has lied to her and to the Holloway family, authorities say.
During this latest meeting, the teen's mother implored: "I can't close the book."
"I have not any hate in me," she told him. "I have none for you because I don't know you, Joran."
Beth Holloway then told van der Sloot that she'd been driving "all damn day" to find a 3 Musketeers bar for him, knowing that he would understand its meaning. She could find only a Milky Way, she said, and she appeared to place it on the table between them. He didn't appear to be handcuffed.
Van der Sloot leaned forward, keeping his eyes on her during their entire meeting, which lasted about five minutes.
"You're looking at spending the rest of your life in prison," she said.
Beth Holloway said that she knew he wanted to make a plea deal in the Flores case. "I've met with prosecutors," she said, hinting that she might be able to help him with a deal, but that she wants information about her daughter first.
"I won't do anything unless I get some information about Natalee," she said. "It's too late for Natalee, it's too late for Stephany, it's too late for me, but it's not too late for you ... to get your life back. You can sit here for the rest of your life, and I can sit here for the rest of my life. ... You can make some choices here, Joran, and you can make the right decisions.
"You have your whole life ahead of you. I want to know what happened ... to move on in my life, and I cannot close the book," Holloway said.
She reminded van der Sloot that his father, whom he was reportedly close to, has died, then made reference to Flores. "We've lost your father, we've lost another young girl. Joran, you don't need to lose your life here in prison and be sitting here when you're 60 years of age, and insisting to me that you don't know what happened.
"If it was an accident, tell me," Holloway implored. "I'm here."
Van der Sloot replied: "It's hard for me to talk to you. ... I know you have a very good heart. I know that for a fact."
Then he asked her for "time to think" and for her address so that he can write her. He then handed her his attorney's phone number and blamed an addiction to gambling for why "I've told so many lies."
"That's honestly the truth," van der Sloot said.
She agreed to give him her information.
Holloway said, "I don't really understand what this means, but ... I think that you might."
She recalled talking to him five years ago. "When I go back in time five years ago, I'm thinking, I felt like you didn't listen to me then."
She pleaded with him, "Let me take her home."
"That's always been my problem," van der Sloot replied. "I really do want to write you ... and some time to think about what I'm going to say."
He then insisted that the five minutes he was allowed for their visit was over. He got up and walked away. She stayed at the table, lowered her head and covered her eyes with her hand.