Accused shooter's poems evoke his daily routine, scenes from Mauritius
Jared Lee Loughner is accused in a deadly shooting at a constituents meeting in Tucson, Arizona, held by U.S. Rep. Gabrielle Giffords.
January 11th, 2011
09:20 PM ET

Accused shooter's poems evoke his daily routine, scenes from Mauritius

Jared Lee Loughner, the man accused of shooting 20 people Saturday at an Arizona political event, attended a poetry class last year at Pima County Community College, a man in the class said.

Student Don Coorough provided CNN's Special Investigations Unit with copies of two poems purportedly written by Loughner for the spring semester class. They have been transcribed below with the same spelling and line breaks as the original copies.

Meat Head

Awaking on the first day of school
Pain of a morning hang over
Attending a weight lifting class for college credit
Attempting to exercise since freshman year of high school
Crawling out of bed and walking to the shower
Warm water hitting my back

Thoughts of being promiscuous with a female again
Putting on a old medium red tee shirt, light brown cameo shorts, and black Adidas
For breakfast a glass of water, cold pepperoni pizza, and two Advil
Bringing my Nano Ipod with heavy metal music
Taking the local bus on a overcast morning
Waiting with crack heads after their nightly binge
Bus is cheap, two dollars for a ride anywhere in the city
Sitting in back against a hard plastic seat
Staring at stop lights, brand new cars, and graffiti
Coming to a slow halt in front of the school
Entering the gym as the glowing florescent lights are humming
Next to the treadmills, putting a green foam mat on the ground
Stretching for fifteen minutes, loosening the muscles in my legs, back and arms
Cleaning the mat with anti-bacterial spray and a paper towel
Jogging for ten minutes, my heart beating, beating, beating
Pain in my right side of the last minute of twenty
Looking around, the cute women are catching my eye
Probably waiting for their hot boyfriends wandering in the locker room
All the men are in shape with their new white tank shirts, basketball short, and Nike shoes
Confusing look on my face of no idea what to do
Deciding to copy other men's routines of
Arm Curls, Leg presses, Rows, Squats, Military something's, and Isolated whatever's
65 minutes
Leaving the gym thinking
Waiting for the bus with alcoholics that are going to the bars early
Coming home for another shower
While grabbing the white towel, the eureka moment is lingering
Quick nap and lunch is on my mind
Setting the alarm one hour before getting ready for my next class
Getting into bed

Falling asleep

Dead as a dodo

On the island of Mauritius a heavy storm is leaving.
In the fields of the ancient wild forest a wild field of mushrooms is growing.
Snails and grasshoppers are ready for the warmth.
The old grass growing with lizards are jolting for crickets while snakes looking for lonely mice.
Falcons are flying for pray.
Shallow light Blue Ocean shimmering at each wave as the black clouds are rolling.
Waves are lapping.
Fisherman on the reefs are casting their poles.
In warm water a pack of clown fish are floating.
Tiger sharks are swimming free.
Steel drums beating in the distance.
The full moon slowly setting for the sun is rising.
At the local cemetery there is weeping.
The dodo is finally dieing.

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  1. Frank Fielder

    What a shame he didn't just stick to writing poetry.

    January 12, 2011 at 11:59 am | Report abuse |
  2. PenSeive

    Today, I am guilty of commenting upon an article I did not read. I scanned the entry and realized there was no information – only the rambling of the accused. It called to mind the headline of yesterday's Huffington Post, which screamed "BECAUSE HE'S MORE IMPORTANT THAN THEM" and featured photos and stories of the victims rather than the assailant featured in this and so many other stories. Upon having seen this CNN article and having clicked to read it, I feel more than a small measure of disdain for my own curiosity. Why are we – and why am I – so fascinated with the perpetrators of such heinous and senseless acts?

    January 12, 2011 at 12:15 pm | Report abuse |
  3. Mental Health

    The bigger issue here is how we deal with mental health – the more we hear from anyone who knew this man, the more we get a picture of someone who had slipped out of reality. As a legal adult, no one could MAKE him go get any psych help. Even his parents would not have been able to MAKE him get help. That is where the laws are broken. If a loving family member is not able to get a young adult child committed, and the individual isn't aware (because they are ill) that there is anything wrong, how do we intervene and make sure this doesn't happen again? We hear over and over about bad events where there were "warning signs." What good do warning signs do when there is no ability to act on them. My 27 year old son suffered a traumatic brain injury following an vehicle accident. It wasn't diagnosed while he was hospitalized with extensive injuries. A mild mannered boy changed to a ranting psycho, and there was NOTHING his dad nor I could do to get him help. Two years of insanity, which ended up in a high speed chase where he was almost killed by the police. The "system" didn't get him any help, even when they saw he was ill. This country needs to recognize and deal with mental health and allow families to help when they see someone they love fall into schizophrenia....

    January 12, 2011 at 12:15 pm | Report abuse |
  4. morningsun

    Why don't we see poems and writings of the victims, more of them and their lives? Why do we get bombarded with photos and every detail of the life of the criminals, while the victims are forgotten – Oh, unless they are someone 'famous'. Others DIED,( did we observe a moment of silence for each of thier families?) and there are others who were wounded, and needing prayer, yet the senator is the only one receiving wide spread media coverage. Granted, many of the victim's families may prefer to remain anonymous, but why are we overrun with info on the killers? Our media coverage is warped, 'we the people' do not need to know everything, see everything, every time. Let the investigators, doctors, necessary professionals pick apart and analize the criminals. Let's start sharing the lives of the victims and the 100's of people each of those lives will touch by their absence. They were not just faces in a crowd.

    January 12, 2011 at 12:18 pm | Report abuse |
  5. tomek

    no such thing as 'original copies'

    January 12, 2011 at 12:25 pm | Report abuse |
  6. LagunaRocks

    We are all weird and obsessed! We love drama, we love bad news, we love movies with murder, we love tabloids, we love dysfunctional television shows! It's not that what this guy did isn't wrong or tragic, but how long this story will be in our mind before we crave fresh meat.

    January 12, 2011 at 12:28 pm | Report abuse |
    • Coates

      How very right you are. Every time something like this happens it turns into "woah is me America". I don't understand how something like this can happen weekly in your country and NOTHING ever changes in your gun control.

      January 12, 2011 at 3:07 pm | Report abuse |
  7. carol

    I don't get why no one is talking about how this obviously mentally ill person found it easier to get a gun than get treatment for his mental illness. How is it that the US military can turn him away without getting him evaluated, and the college can tell him he can't return without getting a mental health evaluation stating that he is not a danger to himself or others. This is the state of mental health care in this's easier to get a gun than to get treatment. When you find yourself trying to get someone help who is over 18 years old you will learn this the hard way. And mental illness doesn't have a political party.

    January 12, 2011 at 12:29 pm | Report abuse |
  8. Tay12345

    You know our country's politics are getting too heated when political figures are injured and/or killed in violent crimes. It is sad that families and communities must face such horrible tradgety in the name of a government that is corrupt and not just. Our government is circling the drain and it is because of President Obama and our Congress. Hopefully, yet not likely, this will send a message. All we can do is pray that God will do right by all who have been wronged in this horrible situation.

    January 12, 2011 at 12:32 pm | Report abuse |
    • sleeper0013

      god does not interfere, god just observes

      January 12, 2011 at 12:53 pm | Report abuse |
    • Minnie

      This have NOTHING to do with Obama but everything with a disturbed individual.

      January 12, 2011 at 1:59 pm | Report abuse |
  9. regina robinson

    aside from how sad this entire tragedy is, i must say that hgttg brought a chuckle out of me. vogon poetry indeed. i daresay that beeblebrox would agree with you because this nutjob's poetry does make you want to rip your ears off and eat them. lmbo.

    January 12, 2011 at 12:40 pm | Report abuse |
  10. bonsai park

    I don't recall anything in the recollections of friends, family or acquaintances that suggest this guy ever had a girlfriend or a relationship of any kind. According to his 'poetry' he has "thoughts of being promiscuous with a female again", but "looking around, the cute women are catching my eye... Probably waiting for their hot boyfriends wandering in the locker room."

    Is it possible that the motivation for this senseless crime was that he felt put down by the attractive Senator's reply to his insightful questions three years ago and has hated her ever since? Could it be as mundane and pathetic as that?

    January 12, 2011 at 12:43 pm | Report abuse |
  11. Seattle

    I'm sorry but what relevance do these poems regarding his daily work out routine or something about Mauritius has anything to do with why he shot those people???? Thank you again CNN for the complete and utter lack of journalistic excellence that I would expect more from Fox News but clearly you seem to be stooping to.

    January 12, 2011 at 12:54 pm | Report abuse |
  12. lilguy

    This man did not get what he wanted. he thought he would be dead. He thought that he would leave all his crazy youtube videos and his myspace pages for people to ponder over and wonder at, not to mention what he left in his safe. He thought he would never have to answer for his crimes. He's smiling now, but when the full weight of what he has done comes to bear, he will know fear as he has never known it before. Americans don't care if hes crazy or not. We want justice for what he has put the nation thru.

    January 12, 2011 at 12:59 pm | Report abuse |
  13. bob

    The student that submitted these poems to CNN is probably nicknamed "snitch."

    January 12, 2011 at 1:00 pm | Report abuse |
  14. billie

    Some will wonder why display his so call portry... so glad u did !it just shows how really sick he was he was screaming for help even after connecting with his family daily they were no help his meanless ,boreing life cost others a meanful life he cost a child that could have been a help for all humanity he cost a congress woman the dream she had for her country not even considering all the hurt he has cause each person he injured we have laws we need to use them to give him his sentance he so much deserve

    January 12, 2011 at 1:01 pm | Report abuse |
  15. Liv

    Just because someone is creative does not make them a mass murderer–although these so called "poems" aren't really that creative at all.

    Let's stop and look collectively at WHO this person is–not at his "artwork". He is a psychopathic schizo. Enough Said.

    My heart goes out to the families and all people involved in this tragedy.

    January 12, 2011 at 1:10 pm | Report abuse |
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