February 13th, 2012
06:00 AM ET

One activist's chronicle of daily hell in Syria

As fresh attacks continue in the besieged city of Homs, Syrian activist "Danny," whose name we are protecting, has escaped the slaughter there and has re-emerged in Lebanon.

Before he left Homs, Danny shared his stories with CNN and posted a number of videos on YouTube purporting to show the violence there. Although CNN cannot verify these videos independently, they appear to show a desperate situation.

Danny’s family was waiting in Cairo last week, desperate for news of his fate.

Watching a video of the carnage, Danny's mother, Helen Abdul Dayem, said, “How can the world not listen to the cries of these mothers? I can’t watch this.”

Activists claim that President Bashar al-Assad's government has been unrelenting in its violence, something the government denies. Danny’s family has become almost a PR agency for the uprising, helping to get journalists into Syria and information out.

Danny’s parents and younger siblings all waited by the phone to hear what had happened to the 23-year-old who put himself in harm's way to chronicle the atrocities in a besieged city. For Akram Abdul Dayem, Danny’s father, the suspense was too much. He rocked back and forth on the couch.

“Just get through this day. Calm down,” his wife told him. But his nerves were too frayed. “I’m taking a machine gun and I’m going to get him. I am. I’ve had enough,” he said.

Soon, a message online confirmed that their son was still alive. Then the telephone rang: Danny was safe and in Lebanon. Connected to Danny on the phone, his father began to sob. Then the connection went dead. Soon, Danny called again.

“Danny, are you all right? It’s good to hear your voice. We’re so worried about you, Danny,” his mother said. She relayed his message to the family: “He says he doesn’t care. They said he was dead four times already,” she said amid nervous laughter. “Well, we care.”

The following is an edited ongoing account of what Danny was seeing, hearing and thinking as the situation in Syria grew more desperate each day.

February 9

As the shelling of Homs continues, Danny witnesses even more horror. This time, it is quite close to home, literally. The building he is in was hit, he says. People moved quickly to try to gather bodies and bury them.

“There's not one safe place in this area. The army is surrounding us, surrounding us in big numbers. Lots of tanks, lots of foot men, lots of troops, anti-air tanks,  tanks, they are hitting us with rockets nonstop from 4 a.m. The same building I'm in, they hit it with a rocket.

Three women they killed, they were pieces. That was 7 a.m., we had to take them - put them inside and take them, bury them.

We don't know how many casualties we have got. I am sure there's 93 people dead. We have their names, but there's more than another 100 underneath the destruction of the buildings.

They have helicopters over this area, hitting us with helicopters, and they are using human shields in their checkpoints so the free armies can't hit the checkpoints. We don't have any medication. We have only one field hospital left. We have only about six doctors now. And that's not enough.”

Because of the constant attacks, Danny says, he and others are at risk if they try to escape what is becoming a daily war zone. They are faced with a choice: hope their building isn’t hit, or try to escape and possibly be hit while fleeing. And that terror is shaking them as they fear that al-Assad’s army is closing in on where Danny is.

“Look, anyone who walks the street is in a risk he might get hit by a rocket or tank shell. Anyone who goes out in the street will be hit by a sniper and rocket. Even if you sit in your house, you're not safe. You might get hit by a tank shell or by a rocket.

The Syrian army is surrounding this area. The free army cannot fight that hard. The Syrian army is getting really close.

We expect the Syrian army will be in the area and arrest lots of people. It will kill people here. We have no idea what to do. We cannot leave this area. No one can come in. No one can go out. They've shot all the ways.”

 The attack on his building has left it in shambles, Danny says.

“More than - more than 10 rockets, 15 rockets and tank shells landed on in the street I live in. This street is only about 50 meters long. The building, my building, was hit by tank shells by rockets.

Underneath my building were three women were killed. We found them in pieces about 7 a.m. Four guys in the same house as me were injured. The situation is really bad.

 The women died. Children died. We have more than 30 children dead from four days ago. We have loads of children injured. My friends are in a hospital. I hope they'll be OK. Lots of them have been hit by fighters yesterday. (Some were hit) today just because of trying to cross the street.

Snipers hit women, children, men, kids, doesn't matter. The Syrian army - I'm not going to call it the Syrian army, they have no humanity in them, they kill anything in front of them. They are hitting civilian houses.”

 As the situation grows even more desperate around him, Danny’s cries for help also become more serious. He begs for a real solution, not just simply people keeping watch of the situation.

“We don't want the monitors anymore. They sent the monitors last time, and we did not get anything out of it. We wanted the U.N. to take this case. We wanted the U.N. to interfere in this.

 If we get the airplanes here, bombard the regime. We want someone to do something about this. We're going to get killed. I'm sure I'll get killed tomorrow if the army gets in here. No one's doing anything about this. We don't want the monitors or the Arab League. They are going to do nothing about this. We want the U.N. to interfere, the U.N. to do something.”

 The shelling, the attacks, the sniper fire haven’t just put fear into Syrians on the ground. It’s also crippled them in many other ways. There is no “normal life” anymore.

 “There's no water. There's no water. They hit all the main water tanks. We have some bread. The bread is hard. We have some - what do you call it, lunch meat, some boxed lunch meat. That's it. We don't have that much food here.

If it stays like this for another two days, our food resource is finished, medication is finished. (If) the army gets in here tomorrow, (it) is over.

No one house has been hit here. All of the houses have been hit here. Not one house has survived the attack.”

February 8

Danny holds another set of rocket shells in his hands. They're all over the place. It has become as common as any other object to be found on the street. The shell is what remains after a bombardment and an onslaught that leaves buildings shattered and families in tatters.

Blood stains the streets red.

And in Danny's eyes nobody is safe. At any minute, at any given time, families fear they could be next.

"Homs is terrible. They're doing a massacre. They're getting the Syrian army; they're surrounding this whole area.

They're surrounding the whole area with army troops and tanks and anti-aircraft. They've been bombarding us from 5 a.m. with all kinds of rockets."

The sights, the sounds, they're all becoming too common, Danny says. Things nobody should see are now a daily part of your routine should you choose to go outside. It's so bad, he says, that he'd even support U.S. military intervention if it meant the horrific acts could stop.

"Women and children have got used to seeing bodies in the street and blood in the street and body parts. We are asking for help.

We are asking the U.N. to please do something about this. We don't care if American forces occupy us. It doesn't matter.

We want any source to come in here and help us."

His cries for help grow louder each day as the violence becomes harder to handle. He talks about a mortar that he says landed on a house and killed a young child.

"His brain came out of his back of his head. This is how they're living.

Eight-year-old and 9-year-old children have to run to get out of the streets. Why do children have to live like this?"

And the streets aren't a better option, Danny notes. It's just as dangerous to even peer outside. He believes government forces are "targeting human beings" at every corner.

"There's snipers. There are snipers all around this area on the long buildings. You could hear them. Anyone who crosses the street could get shot.

I'm going to leave the house in half an hour. We're making our own way between buildings so snipers can't shoot us. This is the way we're trying to live. I'm a human being trying to live, and this is how I'm living.

I have been in this revolution from the beginning. This is a feeling you can never express. My friends, 10 of them died right in front of me because I couldn't take them to the hospital, because I couldn't move them from the streets. We're going to keep on to the end."

February 7

The crisis for Danny and others has become even more personal. Now, even their homes aren't safe, he says.

"What the army is doing is going into civilian houses even if the civilian is still living there. They take the houses, and they break wall by wall so they can move from building to building.

They don't move in the street because the free army is protecting these areas. What the Syrian army is doing are going in buildings, breaking wall-to-wall to go from building to building."

And places that they might go to seek help are being hit too, Danny says.

"They're hitting us with anti-aircraft tanks. Four have been shooting at buildings. Tanks, with shells, the army's been shooting with mortar bombs and rockets like yesterday as well.

(We have) only one hospital. No one can leave. No one go in.

As usual, no doctors can leave. No doctors can come in. They shot at Red Cross ambulance today."

Adding to the trouble of what's happening Syria is the lack of access to a private hospital that used to help perform surgeries and treat the wounded, Danny says. It is off-limits for residents like him and his friends who have been injured.

"The army took it, and it's become their barracks. They're sitting there. The army is posted in that hospital. Before they went to that hospital, they hit the operation room while doctors are doing operations. They kicked the doctors out of the hospital and all of the nurses out of the hospital and left all of the people in there.

Now the Syrian, Assad army are living in that hospital. If we want to take bodies to any government hospital ... you come out with injury in the head or leg, you have injury in head or you're taken by security forces and tortured to death, or they let you bleed to death."

Those descriptions are horrifying to think about. But something that haunts residents in Homs and other cities even more is what the real true toll may be when this all ends.

"Well, what has happened in Homs, we have for the last six months is massacre.

People are saying 6,000 dead, 7,000 dead. Our promise is more than 40,000 people dead.

Everyone who's missing, dead."

February 6

Danny reports that shelling of cities and attacks on the people of Syria continue to intensify. The gravity of the situation becomes more apparent as he sees the direct impact on the people of Syria. On this day, Danny is at a field hospital in Baba-Amr.

"Look at the bodies, dead bodies.

These are rockets. We've got more than 30 people dead and hundreds of injuries, look all dead bodies all over the place. These are all dead bodies. We're not animals. We're human beings. We're asking for help. We're asking for your help.

They're hitting us with rockets. They've been hitting us for four hours now. They're going to kill us all if you don't help us. They'll kill millions, and no one will find out about us. Please, someone, help us."

February 5

The violence is terrifying. Nobody knows when something bad might happen and if the violence will hit their family on that day, Danny says.

“You don't know if the rocket's gonna come in your living room or in your kitchen. It's not easy if someone loses their kid. I saw mothers crying today, that mother lost her 4-year old girl, and her 6-year-old girl lost her left eye.

That's not something easy. Everyone's becoming used to death here.

Blood in the streets. People think our blood is just like water."

He, like others, is concerned about the growing violence and expressed frustration about the lack of support from the United Nations after Russia and China vetoed a resolution that would have put pressure on Bashar al-Assad’s regime.

 "The Assad army, they're not targeting one little place. They're not targeting someone they want. They're targeting everyone. It's randomly bombarding. They're just doing it randomly. They've never done this.

This is what the U.N. did. If it wasn't for the U.N., they wouldn't have did this. The U.N. gave them the green light yesterday. It gave them the OK to kill more. If the U.N. had done something about this, this regime would be a little bit scared."

The dispute over whether the U.N. should intervene or if the issue should be handled by the Arab League has been debated inside and outside the country. For Danny, the U.N. was seen as a last hope to help rescue the people of Syria. He fears what message that veto sent the al-Assad regime.

"We didn't want the Arab League. We wanted the U.N. to take control. And the U.N. abandoned the Syrian people, and we have no one now.

How are the Syrian people going to defend themselves? And now the Assad army has the OK from the European countries in the U.N. to hit as hard as they want."

There is also a frustration, he says, that perhaps countries have come out too late to put pressure on al-Assad. When they have, it has mostly been in grandiose words, not action. And that action, Danny says, is what is needed to stop senseless deaths and tragic and brutal beatings taking place across the country.

"Syrian people, we want to see actions. We don't want to see talk. We're really tired of talk and talk and talk and talk. We see no actions at all. The Syrian president still has his legitimacy. Until now, no country said that this president lost his legitimacy. Until now.

 Why does he still have his legitimacy? After all the killing he did, after all the raping of women, after all the children we've got dead here, he still has got his legitimacy. Until now.

Everyone's talking - while everyone's talking, every second, someone's dying here. It's becoming a normal number. There's 80 dead today, 100 dead tomorrow. These are human lives here. This is a humanitarian - they're not animals."

For many citizens like Danny, those numbers aren't just statistics. They are people. They are neighbors. And they should not be dead.

"I saw really horrible things I'd never seen in my life. Kids in the hospital, a kid with his whole jaw gone.

A little girl, a kid, she's 4 years old, she's dead. Her sister, 6 years old, she lost her left eye, and her mother is in intensive care.

This is nothing - what I saw is nothing. This is all around Homs."

soundoff (559 Responses)
  1. Hamish

    Scottish Mama: In Syria most people could never even get a handgun.. now there are RPG's and auto rifles being handed out like candy by who.. hmm? tooth fairy? US/UK/NATO are smuggling in fighters, weapons, and doing all the training from Turkey/Lebanon

    February 9, 2012 at 10:44 am | Report abuse |
    • Scottish Mama

      So we are already there, bring in the medicine.

      February 9, 2012 at 10:53 am | Report abuse |
    • Samuel

      History lesson: “Bay of Pigs Invasion” the unsuccessful invasion of Cuba by CIA-trained force that was launched in April 1961. It’s the same thing over and over. In Syria, we pay the people there to revolt with the promise of military aid. We put those people lives in jeopardy. Our motives are not about the people, but simple a shell game for positioning power. We have a navy base in Bahrain; their uprising was crushed with mercenaries troops without as much of an eyebrow rise, and continue to this day without even a mention in the mainstream media

      February 9, 2012 at 11:03 am | Report abuse |
  2. Tony B

    It's amazing that the U.S. seems to be supporting the same breed of people that it went after in Afghanistan.

    February 9, 2012 at 10:46 am | Report abuse |
    • Hamish

      Martin:

      Unlike Libya, Syria has CONFIRMED stockpiles of chemical and biological weapons and Assad has made it public that Tel Aviv will burn in the event of Western intervention. Syria also has the S-300 air defence (bought with Iranian money) and other SAM's. US or Israel don't want their aces dragged through the streets naked

      February 9, 2012 at 10:53 am | Report abuse |
  3. Mohammad

    Outsider75. Yes, I've lived in America all my life. But you are missing the point! After Israel, which gets over 3 billion dollars a year from our taxes (and thats only whats on paper) towards developing its military, the second largest beneficiary is Egypt. Iraq, whom America has always had influence over after Saddam revolted against the monarchy which was being supported by the British up until 1979, was is also a beneficiary of American tax money. Just ask yourself one question. These regimes have existed for over 30 to 40 years. They are brutal. They were never elected by their native citizens. Who is supporting them? The American government works best when there is paranoia in these countries because they are able to continously sell the best thing they make. WEAPONS! Now as far as your claim that America is feeding the world, outsourcing jobs, etc, this is a by-product of capitalism. Food distribution to developing countries allows for these less fortunate to barely get by. Desperation allows for manipulation. It's all apart of a well oiled stragey that has been going on even before the Americans came to power. Study British colonialism. I'm not trying to be sarcastic. Yes, there is resentment in the Muslim countries against America. But try to empathatic. Put your feet in their shoes and you will realise that these people are desperate.

    February 9, 2012 at 10:47 am | Report abuse |
  4. Scottish Mama

    @Tony I think CNN is reporting what is happening and what is needed for the injured Syrian people. If we sit idle and do nothing, are we an accomplice to the Assad regime?

    February 9, 2012 at 10:47 am | Report abuse |
    • Tony B

      Can't you see that CNN is over-reporting?
      If you can't see that CNN is participating in a war propaganda campaign then I feel sorry for you.

      February 9, 2012 at 10:58 am | Report abuse |
    • Scottish Mama

      @Tony do not cry for me or feel sorry.lol I think it is a story that is on going, now 126 dead for the day. I think it is a story of the now and what should be done. If you should want a change in our government don't you want someone covering it. Especially when we want human rights for ourselves, not trying to give it to others seems like we are work against ourselves. If Syrian people gain dignity does Russia and China become smaller and the people more inpowered there to follow suit?

      February 9, 2012 at 11:10 am | Report abuse |
  5. Brian

    why are all the reports 2nd hand and only from the rebels? The Syrian army is obviously fighting an armed rebellion. They don't need to use rockets to kill civilians if that was their intent. Who are they fighting? How are they armed? Where are they getting arms from? REPORT

    February 9, 2012 at 10:48 am | Report abuse |
  6. Special K

    Everyone seems to HATE the USA, yet somehow we're expected to solve all the world's problems and infuse these countries with money to the point that we're almost financially ruined and the world is in no better shape. Why is America always vilified for butting in, but when we don't, we're the bad guy? Can't have it both ways. Maybe Syria should try to solve their own problems, we have enough of our own. We all know the US is interested in protecting its access to oil & resources and its to every other Western country's advantage that we do as well. So unless there's something in it for us, probably not gonna happen (military action has to be financed somehow). Let the UN handle this.

    February 9, 2012 at 10:48 am | Report abuse |
    • NO

      Exactly!

      February 9, 2012 at 10:55 am | Report abuse |
    • mansoury

      there is a difference between a humanity issue and politics...politics, religion race and color should not be looked at or thought of when a human beings are being murdered....i see lots of comments of how the US cant get involved, it should get involved and if it was not for russia, they would have already...but sadly politics are in play. Pray for humanity, these are people foremost who do not deserve to be slaughtered...if the world looked the other way when Hitler was killing the Jews and said not our business, Hitler may have made it our business by next invading the US had he not been stopped.

      February 9, 2012 at 11:05 am | Report abuse |
    • Thomas

      How many American lives is Syria worth?

      February 9, 2012 at 4:07 pm | Report abuse |
  7. Martin

    Not that the US can afford to intervene, but how can we sit by and watch these people being slaughtered like this ? We need to at least start hitting the artillery with air strikes. Knock out the guns like was done in Libya and at least give these people a fighting chance.

    February 9, 2012 at 10:49 am | Report abuse |
    • Hamish

      Martin:

      Unlike Libya, Syria has CONFIRMED stockpiles of chemical and biological weapons and Assad has made it public that Tel Aviv will burn in the event of Western intervention. Syria also has the S-300 air defence (bought with Iranian money) and other sophisticated SAM's. US or Israel don't want their aces dragged through the streets naked

      February 9, 2012 at 10:54 am | Report abuse |
  8. EG

    2bs

    February 9, 2012 at 10:51 am | Report abuse |
  9. Samuel

    History lesson: “Bay of Pigs Invasion” the unsuccessful invasion of Cuba by CIA-trained force that was launched in April 1961. It’s the same thing over and over. In Syria, we pay the people there to revolt with the promise of military aid. We put those people lives in jeopardy. Our motives are not about the people, but simple a shell game for positioning power. We have a navy base in Bahrain; their uprising was crushed with mercenaries troops without as much of an eyebrow rise, and continue to this day without even a mention in the mainstream media

    February 9, 2012 at 10:54 am | Report abuse |
  10. Scottish Mama

    @Martin Syrians have 555 Russian migs.

    February 9, 2012 at 10:57 am | Report abuse |
  11. ahmad dera'a

    @Hamish free syrian army contains muslims and christians the same>>>>>>>>do noy say america is the policeman of the world

    February 9, 2012 at 10:58 am | Report abuse |
    • Samuel

      So who gives the "Free syrian army" weapons and tell them to revolt? Go get a history book or search Wikipedia for " “Bay of Pigs Invasion” the unsuccessful invasion of Cuba by CIA-trained force that was launched in April 1961. It’s the same thing over and over. In Syria, we pay the people there to revolt with the promise of military aid. We put those people lives in jeopardy. Our motives are not about the people, but simple a shell game for positioning power.

      February 9, 2012 at 11:10 am | Report abuse |
  12. Bob

    It's pretty pathetic when CNN's writers can't even write. A ridiculous number of spelling/grammar mistakes in the first paragraph alone. It's hardly readable. WHO ARE THE EDITORS??

    February 9, 2012 at 10:58 am | Report abuse |
  13. John Barker

    Let Syria take care of themselves! I agree with Special K. Time to let our own interests override the need to help others. Sorry, but that's the jest of things.

    February 9, 2012 at 10:59 am | Report abuse |
  14. Percy

    Enough with the WMD and Al-Qaida BS, that card has already been played once before – such fools!

    February 9, 2012 at 10:59 am | Report abuse |
    • Samuel

      True Percy. sooo true

      February 9, 2012 at 11:11 am | Report abuse |
  15. Ja Moore

    WWJD. What kind of people r we if we do not act 2 help these people? We will b just as bad as those doin the killin,

    February 9, 2012 at 10:59 am | Report abuse |
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