February 13th, 2012
06:00 AM ET

One activist's chronicle of daily hell in Syria

As fresh attacks continue in the besieged city of Homs, Syrian activist "Danny," whose name we are protecting, has escaped the slaughter there and has re-emerged in Lebanon.

Before he left Homs, Danny shared his stories with CNN and posted a number of videos on YouTube purporting to show the violence there. Although CNN cannot verify these videos independently, they appear to show a desperate situation.

Danny’s family was waiting in Cairo last week, desperate for news of his fate.

Watching a video of the carnage, Danny's mother, Helen Abdul Dayem, said, “How can the world not listen to the cries of these mothers? I can’t watch this.”

Activists claim that President Bashar al-Assad's government has been unrelenting in its violence, something the government denies. Danny’s family has become almost a PR agency for the uprising, helping to get journalists into Syria and information out.

Danny’s parents and younger siblings all waited by the phone to hear what had happened to the 23-year-old who put himself in harm's way to chronicle the atrocities in a besieged city. For Akram Abdul Dayem, Danny’s father, the suspense was too much. He rocked back and forth on the couch.

“Just get through this day. Calm down,” his wife told him. But his nerves were too frayed. “I’m taking a machine gun and I’m going to get him. I am. I’ve had enough,” he said.

Soon, a message online confirmed that their son was still alive. Then the telephone rang: Danny was safe and in Lebanon. Connected to Danny on the phone, his father began to sob. Then the connection went dead. Soon, Danny called again.

“Danny, are you all right? It’s good to hear your voice. We’re so worried about you, Danny,” his mother said. She relayed his message to the family: “He says he doesn’t care. They said he was dead four times already,” she said amid nervous laughter. “Well, we care.”

The following is an edited ongoing account of what Danny was seeing, hearing and thinking as the situation in Syria grew more desperate each day.

February 9

As the shelling of Homs continues, Danny witnesses even more horror. This time, it is quite close to home, literally. The building he is in was hit, he says. People moved quickly to try to gather bodies and bury them.

“There's not one safe place in this area. The army is surrounding us, surrounding us in big numbers. Lots of tanks, lots of foot men, lots of troops, anti-air tanks,  tanks, they are hitting us with rockets nonstop from 4 a.m. The same building I'm in, they hit it with a rocket.

Three women they killed, they were pieces. That was 7 a.m., we had to take them - put them inside and take them, bury them.

We don't know how many casualties we have got. I am sure there's 93 people dead. We have their names, but there's more than another 100 underneath the destruction of the buildings.

They have helicopters over this area, hitting us with helicopters, and they are using human shields in their checkpoints so the free armies can't hit the checkpoints. We don't have any medication. We have only one field hospital left. We have only about six doctors now. And that's not enough.”

Because of the constant attacks, Danny says, he and others are at risk if they try to escape what is becoming a daily war zone. They are faced with a choice: hope their building isn’t hit, or try to escape and possibly be hit while fleeing. And that terror is shaking them as they fear that al-Assad’s army is closing in on where Danny is.

“Look, anyone who walks the street is in a risk he might get hit by a rocket or tank shell. Anyone who goes out in the street will be hit by a sniper and rocket. Even if you sit in your house, you're not safe. You might get hit by a tank shell or by a rocket.

The Syrian army is surrounding this area. The free army cannot fight that hard. The Syrian army is getting really close.

We expect the Syrian army will be in the area and arrest lots of people. It will kill people here. We have no idea what to do. We cannot leave this area. No one can come in. No one can go out. They've shot all the ways.”

 The attack on his building has left it in shambles, Danny says.

“More than - more than 10 rockets, 15 rockets and tank shells landed on in the street I live in. This street is only about 50 meters long. The building, my building, was hit by tank shells by rockets.

Underneath my building were three women were killed. We found them in pieces about 7 a.m. Four guys in the same house as me were injured. The situation is really bad.

 The women died. Children died. We have more than 30 children dead from four days ago. We have loads of children injured. My friends are in a hospital. I hope they'll be OK. Lots of them have been hit by fighters yesterday. (Some were hit) today just because of trying to cross the street.

Snipers hit women, children, men, kids, doesn't matter. The Syrian army - I'm not going to call it the Syrian army, they have no humanity in them, they kill anything in front of them. They are hitting civilian houses.”

 As the situation grows even more desperate around him, Danny’s cries for help also become more serious. He begs for a real solution, not just simply people keeping watch of the situation.

“We don't want the monitors anymore. They sent the monitors last time, and we did not get anything out of it. We wanted the U.N. to take this case. We wanted the U.N. to interfere in this.

 If we get the airplanes here, bombard the regime. We want someone to do something about this. We're going to get killed. I'm sure I'll get killed tomorrow if the army gets in here. No one's doing anything about this. We don't want the monitors or the Arab League. They are going to do nothing about this. We want the U.N. to interfere, the U.N. to do something.”

 The shelling, the attacks, the sniper fire haven’t just put fear into Syrians on the ground. It’s also crippled them in many other ways. There is no “normal life” anymore.

 “There's no water. There's no water. They hit all the main water tanks. We have some bread. The bread is hard. We have some - what do you call it, lunch meat, some boxed lunch meat. That's it. We don't have that much food here.

If it stays like this for another two days, our food resource is finished, medication is finished. (If) the army gets in here tomorrow, (it) is over.

No one house has been hit here. All of the houses have been hit here. Not one house has survived the attack.”

February 8

Danny holds another set of rocket shells in his hands. They're all over the place. It has become as common as any other object to be found on the street. The shell is what remains after a bombardment and an onslaught that leaves buildings shattered and families in tatters.

Blood stains the streets red.

And in Danny's eyes nobody is safe. At any minute, at any given time, families fear they could be next.

"Homs is terrible. They're doing a massacre. They're getting the Syrian army; they're surrounding this whole area.

They're surrounding the whole area with army troops and tanks and anti-aircraft. They've been bombarding us from 5 a.m. with all kinds of rockets."

The sights, the sounds, they're all becoming too common, Danny says. Things nobody should see are now a daily part of your routine should you choose to go outside. It's so bad, he says, that he'd even support U.S. military intervention if it meant the horrific acts could stop.

"Women and children have got used to seeing bodies in the street and blood in the street and body parts. We are asking for help.

We are asking the U.N. to please do something about this. We don't care if American forces occupy us. It doesn't matter.

We want any source to come in here and help us."

His cries for help grow louder each day as the violence becomes harder to handle. He talks about a mortar that he says landed on a house and killed a young child.

"His brain came out of his back of his head. This is how they're living.

Eight-year-old and 9-year-old children have to run to get out of the streets. Why do children have to live like this?"

And the streets aren't a better option, Danny notes. It's just as dangerous to even peer outside. He believes government forces are "targeting human beings" at every corner.

"There's snipers. There are snipers all around this area on the long buildings. You could hear them. Anyone who crosses the street could get shot.

I'm going to leave the house in half an hour. We're making our own way between buildings so snipers can't shoot us. This is the way we're trying to live. I'm a human being trying to live, and this is how I'm living.

I have been in this revolution from the beginning. This is a feeling you can never express. My friends, 10 of them died right in front of me because I couldn't take them to the hospital, because I couldn't move them from the streets. We're going to keep on to the end."

February 7

The crisis for Danny and others has become even more personal. Now, even their homes aren't safe, he says.

"What the army is doing is going into civilian houses even if the civilian is still living there. They take the houses, and they break wall by wall so they can move from building to building.

They don't move in the street because the free army is protecting these areas. What the Syrian army is doing are going in buildings, breaking wall-to-wall to go from building to building."

And places that they might go to seek help are being hit too, Danny says.

"They're hitting us with anti-aircraft tanks. Four have been shooting at buildings. Tanks, with shells, the army's been shooting with mortar bombs and rockets like yesterday as well.

(We have) only one hospital. No one can leave. No one go in.

As usual, no doctors can leave. No doctors can come in. They shot at Red Cross ambulance today."

Adding to the trouble of what's happening Syria is the lack of access to a private hospital that used to help perform surgeries and treat the wounded, Danny says. It is off-limits for residents like him and his friends who have been injured.

"The army took it, and it's become their barracks. They're sitting there. The army is posted in that hospital. Before they went to that hospital, they hit the operation room while doctors are doing operations. They kicked the doctors out of the hospital and all of the nurses out of the hospital and left all of the people in there.

Now the Syrian, Assad army are living in that hospital. If we want to take bodies to any government hospital ... you come out with injury in the head or leg, you have injury in head or you're taken by security forces and tortured to death, or they let you bleed to death."

Those descriptions are horrifying to think about. But something that haunts residents in Homs and other cities even more is what the real true toll may be when this all ends.

"Well, what has happened in Homs, we have for the last six months is massacre.

People are saying 6,000 dead, 7,000 dead. Our promise is more than 40,000 people dead.

Everyone who's missing, dead."

February 6

Danny reports that shelling of cities and attacks on the people of Syria continue to intensify. The gravity of the situation becomes more apparent as he sees the direct impact on the people of Syria. On this day, Danny is at a field hospital in Baba-Amr.

"Look at the bodies, dead bodies.

These are rockets. We've got more than 30 people dead and hundreds of injuries, look all dead bodies all over the place. These are all dead bodies. We're not animals. We're human beings. We're asking for help. We're asking for your help.

They're hitting us with rockets. They've been hitting us for four hours now. They're going to kill us all if you don't help us. They'll kill millions, and no one will find out about us. Please, someone, help us."

February 5

The violence is terrifying. Nobody knows when something bad might happen and if the violence will hit their family on that day, Danny says.

“You don't know if the rocket's gonna come in your living room or in your kitchen. It's not easy if someone loses their kid. I saw mothers crying today, that mother lost her 4-year old girl, and her 6-year-old girl lost her left eye.

That's not something easy. Everyone's becoming used to death here.

Blood in the streets. People think our blood is just like water."

He, like others, is concerned about the growing violence and expressed frustration about the lack of support from the United Nations after Russia and China vetoed a resolution that would have put pressure on Bashar al-Assad’s regime.

 "The Assad army, they're not targeting one little place. They're not targeting someone they want. They're targeting everyone. It's randomly bombarding. They're just doing it randomly. They've never done this.

This is what the U.N. did. If it wasn't for the U.N., they wouldn't have did this. The U.N. gave them the green light yesterday. It gave them the OK to kill more. If the U.N. had done something about this, this regime would be a little bit scared."

The dispute over whether the U.N. should intervene or if the issue should be handled by the Arab League has been debated inside and outside the country. For Danny, the U.N. was seen as a last hope to help rescue the people of Syria. He fears what message that veto sent the al-Assad regime.

"We didn't want the Arab League. We wanted the U.N. to take control. And the U.N. abandoned the Syrian people, and we have no one now.

How are the Syrian people going to defend themselves? And now the Assad army has the OK from the European countries in the U.N. to hit as hard as they want."

There is also a frustration, he says, that perhaps countries have come out too late to put pressure on al-Assad. When they have, it has mostly been in grandiose words, not action. And that action, Danny says, is what is needed to stop senseless deaths and tragic and brutal beatings taking place across the country.

"Syrian people, we want to see actions. We don't want to see talk. We're really tired of talk and talk and talk and talk. We see no actions at all. The Syrian president still has his legitimacy. Until now, no country said that this president lost his legitimacy. Until now.

 Why does he still have his legitimacy? After all the killing he did, after all the raping of women, after all the children we've got dead here, he still has got his legitimacy. Until now.

Everyone's talking - while everyone's talking, every second, someone's dying here. It's becoming a normal number. There's 80 dead today, 100 dead tomorrow. These are human lives here. This is a humanitarian - they're not animals."

For many citizens like Danny, those numbers aren't just statistics. They are people. They are neighbors. And they should not be dead.

"I saw really horrible things I'd never seen in my life. Kids in the hospital, a kid with his whole jaw gone.

A little girl, a kid, she's 4 years old, she's dead. Her sister, 6 years old, she lost her left eye, and her mother is in intensive care.

This is nothing - what I saw is nothing. This is all around Homs."

soundoff (559 Responses)
  1. Outsider75

    good luck with that Ahmad

    February 9, 2012 at 11:16 am | Report abuse |
    • ahmad dera'a

      we will win our freedom but at least now the syrian people know wt the human rights means 2 american and whole the world people

      February 9, 2012 at 11:30 am | Report abuse |
    • Amanda St. Paul MN

      @Ahamd. This is was my response to another American about helping -vs- not helping the Syrian people.
      I had PALPABLE hatred of Muslims for years after 9/11, and I can't say that all of those feelings of dislike and distrust have totally subsided. But at some point I realized that not every single person living in the MiddleEast hates us, and that there ARE people over there that want the same things we want, happiness, healthy families, a good life, and freedom. I can't tell you what to believe, but I have come to my own conclusions about the world and the people that live in it. My patriotism for MY nation, and the history of how we fought for, and won our freedom, inspires in me a weird sense of kinship with others trying to fight for theirs. I am torn about "ArabSpring", because since I was a kid, I have held a hatred and distrust for Muslims. But when I saw the people of Egypt and other nations "raging against the machine", they had my respect. No matter if they believe what I believe or not, mass slaughter of citizens is wrong in my mind. I don't think every man, woman, and child living in that region of the world is evil, or hates America, and I will ALWAYS root for the underdog, EVERYTIME.
      BUT... the American people are sick, and tired, of intervening, helping, only to have our good will gesture thrown in our faces. We are tired of being vilified, and having our flag burned in the streets by the people we came to the defense of a year before.
      If it were up to me, I would drop some bombs on Assad, to defend the common man in Syria. I wish people didn't hate each other too, but that is never going to happen. Americans are good people, and I think Syrians are good people too. I am not speaking of the governments in charge, or the groups with extremist views, but the COMMON people, everyday people who just want freedom and happiness. Americans are on the side of freedom, but we have a limit as to how much we will tolerate in the form of backlash, anti-American sentiment, and hatred of our values. We put OUR lives on the line, and OUR resources on the table for fights that were not ours fight. The American people backed it, thinking it was the right thing to do, and in return we have been slapped in the face. Our people here are sick of hearing how terrible we are, how we are war-mongers, and infidels. I will speak for all Americans, we ARE good people, we HAVE done many good things for the world, and we are PROUD of that.

      February 9, 2012 at 12:10 pm | Report abuse |
    • Sarah

      Amanda - I don't want to see anymore of our youth killed either. But the very people who scream for the US to stay out of other countries are the same ones that insist we are the greatest nation on earth and should be able to do whatever we want. When we stop using these countries (ie buying and selling arms or oil), we can say we will ignore their issues. But the US and its citizens have financial interests in these countries, and as long as money reigns supreme, we are part of the problem.

      February 9, 2012 at 12:42 pm | Report abuse |
  2. P Denn

    The media is just providing cover for another war. This is Libya all over again. Perpetual war.

    February 9, 2012 at 11:17 am | Report abuse |
    • Percy

      No - not this time around 😉

      February 9, 2012 at 11:18 am | Report abuse |
  3. Percy

    Sorry folks, this being an election year in the USA, there will be no assistance as we are busy picking our candidates and then trying to get reelected-understand. By the time all that is finished your little opposition movement will be past tense!

    February 9, 2012 at 11:17 am | Report abuse |
  4. eddie

    This is whats happening in syria and its simply whats been happening in the rest of the arab world. The US is instigating this war by sending in al quieda(arab mercenaries)to kill cicilians and attack the current syrian govt.... The syrian govt is trying to protect the people and itself but fighting is awkward and civilians are getting killed too. America is trying to say that this is a "revolution" while in reality its just america trying to topple yet another govt....and ofcourse because this is an american instigated war they have a nice little spin on what happening and it looks horrible to the stupid american public....BOOM!

    February 9, 2012 at 11:18 am | Report abuse |

      You must have gotten your facts from the freaks news network (fox).......What have you been smokin?

      February 9, 2012 at 11:24 am | Report abuse |
    • Shacked

      You sir are one of the biggest idiots I have seen on the internet in a long time.

      February 9, 2012 at 11:29 am | Report abuse |
    • Brian

      You have a really warped since of reality. Enjoy that

      February 9, 2012 at 11:30 am | Report abuse |
    • onesittingbill

      Move there yourself. You don't like it here anyway

      February 9, 2012 at 11:34 am | Report abuse |
    • ConcernedAmericanite

      Eddie – please go and read a comic book. There are adults here.

      February 9, 2012 at 11:44 am | Report abuse |
  5. ahmad dera'a

    if u read some books and think u r genus? the syrian regime who send the terrorists 2 iraq this regime who support alqaeda,iran & huzb allah wt u know about middle east?

    February 9, 2012 at 11:19 am | Report abuse |

      because I am a man of science..........religion has no part in a sane persons life

      February 9, 2012 at 11:31 am | Report abuse |
  6. kommy

    British and Qatari special forces are fighting in Homs. So much for uprising- the Israeli sources inform. Russians are outraged.

    Read more: http://theeuropeanaffairs.blogspot.com/2012/02/british-and-qatari-special-operations.html

    February 9, 2012 at 11:21 am | Report abuse |
  7. Russell

    John Mccain is the greatest senator ,listen to what he said today,he understands that Syria is a battle ground with the forces of evil and he knows that the west and moderate arab countries have to win this battle by removing this tirant who learned from his father that slaugtering people can work .It worked 30 yeras ago.But in this day of age it will not work.Asad is history and the people of Syria will win soon.

    February 9, 2012 at 11:21 am | Report abuse |
    • CNNshill

      John McCain is a war mongering fraud.

      February 9, 2012 at 11:32 am | Report abuse |
    • Thomas

      So is John McCain volunteering to go over there and fight? Or does he want other Americans to go over there and fight while he sits back here?

      February 9, 2012 at 4:12 pm | Report abuse |


    February 9, 2012 at 11:21 am | Report abuse |
    • ahmad dera'a

      u r insulting my religion wt u know about my holly quran? why i don't insult ur religion?

      February 9, 2012 at 11:25 am | Report abuse |
  9. D_NYC

    For those of you who think it is our obligation to interve and help the people in Syria, I have news for you... We will spend the money, sacrifice American lives, put ourselves in the middle of yet another worthless war... and guess what we will get out of it? NOTHING... These people do not stand for the values we stand for, these people will spit in our faces if they could, these people do not know the meaning of the words tolerance, respect and shame. For them we Americans are just a group of infidels and imperialist who deserve the worst. So asking us for help is quite ridiculous. I have nothing against the Islam or muslims, but their mentality is backwards: you are with us or you are against us... they do not believe in a society we all can co-exist and live based on our own beliefs... And it is sad, very sad indeed, that as of today we still have people in our country who don't realize the threat that this represents as more and more and more of them keep coming here.

    February 9, 2012 at 11:22 am | Report abuse |
    • Brian

      I for one am not willing to sacrifice American children in this...

      February 9, 2012 at 11:24 am | Report abuse |
    • Thomas

      Perhaps the government will try to spin that Syrian Oil will pay for US participation. Like that worked well in Iraq.

      February 9, 2012 at 4:13 pm | Report abuse |
  10. NAKH

    One innocent question, with all the troubles and wars around the world, why it is always about Syria in the from page in this site ?

    February 9, 2012 at 11:23 am | Report abuse |
    • Brian

      If it bleed it leads.

      February 9, 2012 at 11:34 am | Report abuse |
  11. urunner

    It was not this bad in Libya. Question: How much oil does Syria have?

    February 9, 2012 at 11:26 am | Report abuse |
  12. D_NYC

    if you dont believe in what I said in my previous comment, just look at this page... CNN homepage upper left... there is an OPTION IN ARABIC. Why does CNN has a link in Arabic... We speak ENGLISH, our language in ENGLISH. We are overly tolerant, and do not realize we are slowly allowing too much.

    February 9, 2012 at 11:27 am | Report abuse |
    • ConcernedAmericanite

      There is an option to read in Arabic because there are probably Arabian relatives here in America who want to read and see what is going on back in their home country. Perhaps they don't read English? Do you think because they cannot read English they should not be here? That sounds mighty un-American of you. I don't understand people that love America but don't act with American ways. If you don't live "the American Way", then get the fkc out of America and go live in a Third World Country.

      February 9, 2012 at 11:51 am | Report abuse |
  13. tacpa

    terrible over there. total animals with not respect for human life.

    February 9, 2012 at 11:27 am | Report abuse |
  14. al

    I'm sick all this propagandist billshut - Arabs have been slaughtering each other for centuries. Let's leave the Syrians to slug it out as they see fit. It is none of our business.

    February 9, 2012 at 11:28 am | Report abuse |

      finally.............a true realist...Congratulations

      February 9, 2012 at 11:29 am | Report abuse |
    • Another voice

      Yaaay! On the nose!!

      February 9, 2012 at 11:35 am | Report abuse |

    The republican war mongers will get us involved.........because war is big business. Of course none of their sons or daughters would ever be sent there heaven forbid. They will find a reason to occupy.........possibly GMD.....Goats of Mass Destruction EH?

    February 9, 2012 at 11:28 am | Report abuse |
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