February 13th, 2012
06:00 AM ET

One activist's chronicle of daily hell in Syria

As fresh attacks continue in the besieged city of Homs, Syrian activist "Danny," whose name we are protecting, has escaped the slaughter there and has re-emerged in Lebanon.

Before he left Homs, Danny shared his stories with CNN and posted a number of videos on YouTube purporting to show the violence there. Although CNN cannot verify these videos independently, they appear to show a desperate situation.

Danny’s family was waiting in Cairo last week, desperate for news of his fate.

Watching a video of the carnage, Danny's mother, Helen Abdul Dayem, said, “How can the world not listen to the cries of these mothers? I can’t watch this.”

Activists claim that President Bashar al-Assad's government has been unrelenting in its violence, something the government denies. Danny’s family has become almost a PR agency for the uprising, helping to get journalists into Syria and information out.

Danny’s parents and younger siblings all waited by the phone to hear what had happened to the 23-year-old who put himself in harm's way to chronicle the atrocities in a besieged city. For Akram Abdul Dayem, Danny’s father, the suspense was too much. He rocked back and forth on the couch.

“Just get through this day. Calm down,” his wife told him. But his nerves were too frayed. “I’m taking a machine gun and I’m going to get him. I am. I’ve had enough,” he said.

Soon, a message online confirmed that their son was still alive. Then the telephone rang: Danny was safe and in Lebanon. Connected to Danny on the phone, his father began to sob. Then the connection went dead. Soon, Danny called again.

“Danny, are you all right? It’s good to hear your voice. We’re so worried about you, Danny,” his mother said. She relayed his message to the family: “He says he doesn’t care. They said he was dead four times already,” she said amid nervous laughter. “Well, we care.”

The following is an edited ongoing account of what Danny was seeing, hearing and thinking as the situation in Syria grew more desperate each day.

February 9

As the shelling of Homs continues, Danny witnesses even more horror. This time, it is quite close to home, literally. The building he is in was hit, he says. People moved quickly to try to gather bodies and bury them.

“There's not one safe place in this area. The army is surrounding us, surrounding us in big numbers. Lots of tanks, lots of foot men, lots of troops, anti-air tanks,  tanks, they are hitting us with rockets nonstop from 4 a.m. The same building I'm in, they hit it with a rocket.

Three women they killed, they were pieces. That was 7 a.m., we had to take them - put them inside and take them, bury them.

We don't know how many casualties we have got. I am sure there's 93 people dead. We have their names, but there's more than another 100 underneath the destruction of the buildings.

They have helicopters over this area, hitting us with helicopters, and they are using human shields in their checkpoints so the free armies can't hit the checkpoints. We don't have any medication. We have only one field hospital left. We have only about six doctors now. And that's not enough.”

Because of the constant attacks, Danny says, he and others are at risk if they try to escape what is becoming a daily war zone. They are faced with a choice: hope their building isn’t hit, or try to escape and possibly be hit while fleeing. And that terror is shaking them as they fear that al-Assad’s army is closing in on where Danny is.

“Look, anyone who walks the street is in a risk he might get hit by a rocket or tank shell. Anyone who goes out in the street will be hit by a sniper and rocket. Even if you sit in your house, you're not safe. You might get hit by a tank shell or by a rocket.

The Syrian army is surrounding this area. The free army cannot fight that hard. The Syrian army is getting really close.

We expect the Syrian army will be in the area and arrest lots of people. It will kill people here. We have no idea what to do. We cannot leave this area. No one can come in. No one can go out. They've shot all the ways.”

 The attack on his building has left it in shambles, Danny says.

“More than - more than 10 rockets, 15 rockets and tank shells landed on in the street I live in. This street is only about 50 meters long. The building, my building, was hit by tank shells by rockets.

Underneath my building were three women were killed. We found them in pieces about 7 a.m. Four guys in the same house as me were injured. The situation is really bad.

 The women died. Children died. We have more than 30 children dead from four days ago. We have loads of children injured. My friends are in a hospital. I hope they'll be OK. Lots of them have been hit by fighters yesterday. (Some were hit) today just because of trying to cross the street.

Snipers hit women, children, men, kids, doesn't matter. The Syrian army - I'm not going to call it the Syrian army, they have no humanity in them, they kill anything in front of them. They are hitting civilian houses.”

 As the situation grows even more desperate around him, Danny’s cries for help also become more serious. He begs for a real solution, not just simply people keeping watch of the situation.

“We don't want the monitors anymore. They sent the monitors last time, and we did not get anything out of it. We wanted the U.N. to take this case. We wanted the U.N. to interfere in this.

 If we get the airplanes here, bombard the regime. We want someone to do something about this. We're going to get killed. I'm sure I'll get killed tomorrow if the army gets in here. No one's doing anything about this. We don't want the monitors or the Arab League. They are going to do nothing about this. We want the U.N. to interfere, the U.N. to do something.”

 The shelling, the attacks, the sniper fire haven’t just put fear into Syrians on the ground. It’s also crippled them in many other ways. There is no “normal life” anymore.

 “There's no water. There's no water. They hit all the main water tanks. We have some bread. The bread is hard. We have some - what do you call it, lunch meat, some boxed lunch meat. That's it. We don't have that much food here.

If it stays like this for another two days, our food resource is finished, medication is finished. (If) the army gets in here tomorrow, (it) is over.

No one house has been hit here. All of the houses have been hit here. Not one house has survived the attack.”

February 8

Danny holds another set of rocket shells in his hands. They're all over the place. It has become as common as any other object to be found on the street. The shell is what remains after a bombardment and an onslaught that leaves buildings shattered and families in tatters.

Blood stains the streets red.

And in Danny's eyes nobody is safe. At any minute, at any given time, families fear they could be next.

"Homs is terrible. They're doing a massacre. They're getting the Syrian army; they're surrounding this whole area.

They're surrounding the whole area with army troops and tanks and anti-aircraft. They've been bombarding us from 5 a.m. with all kinds of rockets."

The sights, the sounds, they're all becoming too common, Danny says. Things nobody should see are now a daily part of your routine should you choose to go outside. It's so bad, he says, that he'd even support U.S. military intervention if it meant the horrific acts could stop.

"Women and children have got used to seeing bodies in the street and blood in the street and body parts. We are asking for help.

We are asking the U.N. to please do something about this. We don't care if American forces occupy us. It doesn't matter.

We want any source to come in here and help us."

His cries for help grow louder each day as the violence becomes harder to handle. He talks about a mortar that he says landed on a house and killed a young child.

"His brain came out of his back of his head. This is how they're living.

Eight-year-old and 9-year-old children have to run to get out of the streets. Why do children have to live like this?"

And the streets aren't a better option, Danny notes. It's just as dangerous to even peer outside. He believes government forces are "targeting human beings" at every corner.

"There's snipers. There are snipers all around this area on the long buildings. You could hear them. Anyone who crosses the street could get shot.

I'm going to leave the house in half an hour. We're making our own way between buildings so snipers can't shoot us. This is the way we're trying to live. I'm a human being trying to live, and this is how I'm living.

I have been in this revolution from the beginning. This is a feeling you can never express. My friends, 10 of them died right in front of me because I couldn't take them to the hospital, because I couldn't move them from the streets. We're going to keep on to the end."

February 7

The crisis for Danny and others has become even more personal. Now, even their homes aren't safe, he says.

"What the army is doing is going into civilian houses even if the civilian is still living there. They take the houses, and they break wall by wall so they can move from building to building.

They don't move in the street because the free army is protecting these areas. What the Syrian army is doing are going in buildings, breaking wall-to-wall to go from building to building."

And places that they might go to seek help are being hit too, Danny says.

"They're hitting us with anti-aircraft tanks. Four have been shooting at buildings. Tanks, with shells, the army's been shooting with mortar bombs and rockets like yesterday as well.

(We have) only one hospital. No one can leave. No one go in.

As usual, no doctors can leave. No doctors can come in. They shot at Red Cross ambulance today."

Adding to the trouble of what's happening Syria is the lack of access to a private hospital that used to help perform surgeries and treat the wounded, Danny says. It is off-limits for residents like him and his friends who have been injured.

"The army took it, and it's become their barracks. They're sitting there. The army is posted in that hospital. Before they went to that hospital, they hit the operation room while doctors are doing operations. They kicked the doctors out of the hospital and all of the nurses out of the hospital and left all of the people in there.

Now the Syrian, Assad army are living in that hospital. If we want to take bodies to any government hospital ... you come out with injury in the head or leg, you have injury in head or you're taken by security forces and tortured to death, or they let you bleed to death."

Those descriptions are horrifying to think about. But something that haunts residents in Homs and other cities even more is what the real true toll may be when this all ends.

"Well, what has happened in Homs, we have for the last six months is massacre.

People are saying 6,000 dead, 7,000 dead. Our promise is more than 40,000 people dead.

Everyone who's missing, dead."

February 6

Danny reports that shelling of cities and attacks on the people of Syria continue to intensify. The gravity of the situation becomes more apparent as he sees the direct impact on the people of Syria. On this day, Danny is at a field hospital in Baba-Amr.

"Look at the bodies, dead bodies.

These are rockets. We've got more than 30 people dead and hundreds of injuries, look all dead bodies all over the place. These are all dead bodies. We're not animals. We're human beings. We're asking for help. We're asking for your help.

They're hitting us with rockets. They've been hitting us for four hours now. They're going to kill us all if you don't help us. They'll kill millions, and no one will find out about us. Please, someone, help us."

February 5

The violence is terrifying. Nobody knows when something bad might happen and if the violence will hit their family on that day, Danny says.

“You don't know if the rocket's gonna come in your living room or in your kitchen. It's not easy if someone loses their kid. I saw mothers crying today, that mother lost her 4-year old girl, and her 6-year-old girl lost her left eye.

That's not something easy. Everyone's becoming used to death here.

Blood in the streets. People think our blood is just like water."

He, like others, is concerned about the growing violence and expressed frustration about the lack of support from the United Nations after Russia and China vetoed a resolution that would have put pressure on Bashar al-Assad’s regime.

 "The Assad army, they're not targeting one little place. They're not targeting someone they want. They're targeting everyone. It's randomly bombarding. They're just doing it randomly. They've never done this.

This is what the U.N. did. If it wasn't for the U.N., they wouldn't have did this. The U.N. gave them the green light yesterday. It gave them the OK to kill more. If the U.N. had done something about this, this regime would be a little bit scared."

The dispute over whether the U.N. should intervene or if the issue should be handled by the Arab League has been debated inside and outside the country. For Danny, the U.N. was seen as a last hope to help rescue the people of Syria. He fears what message that veto sent the al-Assad regime.

"We didn't want the Arab League. We wanted the U.N. to take control. And the U.N. abandoned the Syrian people, and we have no one now.

How are the Syrian people going to defend themselves? And now the Assad army has the OK from the European countries in the U.N. to hit as hard as they want."

There is also a frustration, he says, that perhaps countries have come out too late to put pressure on al-Assad. When they have, it has mostly been in grandiose words, not action. And that action, Danny says, is what is needed to stop senseless deaths and tragic and brutal beatings taking place across the country.

"Syrian people, we want to see actions. We don't want to see talk. We're really tired of talk and talk and talk and talk. We see no actions at all. The Syrian president still has his legitimacy. Until now, no country said that this president lost his legitimacy. Until now.

 Why does he still have his legitimacy? After all the killing he did, after all the raping of women, after all the children we've got dead here, he still has got his legitimacy. Until now.

Everyone's talking - while everyone's talking, every second, someone's dying here. It's becoming a normal number. There's 80 dead today, 100 dead tomorrow. These are human lives here. This is a humanitarian - they're not animals."

For many citizens like Danny, those numbers aren't just statistics. They are people. They are neighbors. And they should not be dead.

"I saw really horrible things I'd never seen in my life. Kids in the hospital, a kid with his whole jaw gone.

A little girl, a kid, she's 4 years old, she's dead. Her sister, 6 years old, she lost her left eye, and her mother is in intensive care.

This is nothing - what I saw is nothing. This is all around Homs."

soundoff (559 Responses)
  1. NorCalMojo

    Civil wars suck.

    February 9, 2012 at 11:45 am | Report abuse |
    • Ted

      True. And how much longer can the Syrian gov't keep on killing its people? Just so a guy who is not legally elected can hang on to power?

      February 9, 2012 at 12:02 pm | Report abuse |
  2. CNNshill

    Pay attention: Syria is going to be a warm-up for Iran.
    The war machine of the elites is cleaning house in the middle east in one fell swoop while the troops are still there.
    Speaking of our troops, you know the men and women? Don't forget what the elites' poster boy of diplomacy thinks of them:

    “Military men are just dumb stupid animals to be used as pawns in foreign policy.”
    Henry Kissinger

    February 9, 2012 at 11:45 am | Report abuse |
    • ed dee

      That quote is from Bill Clinton.. Not former secty of state.

      February 9, 2012 at 12:24 pm | Report abuse |
    • CNNshill

      @ed:
      SOURCE: Henry Kissinger, quoted in "Kiss the Boys Goodbye: How the United States Betrayed Its Own POW's in Vietnam"

      February 9, 2012 at 1:09 pm | Report abuse |
  3. Skegeeace

    The Lord is still in His temple. May He put a hand of peace over this broken world soon. Have mercy...why do we do this to one another?

    February 9, 2012 at 11:46 am | Report abuse |
  4. OregonTom

    The rebels should not give up. What if the colonies gave up fighting the British?

    February 9, 2012 at 11:46 am | Report abuse |
    • Brian

      they better get more organized quickly if they want to keep it up...

      February 9, 2012 at 11:49 am | Report abuse |
  5. Carlina

    SHAME on you for your hatred. It is because of HATE that this is happening. Do not forget that WE ALSO have butchered our own! It was called THE Civil War. Ignorance breeds hatred and so do ill placed words. These are not animals – they are human beings with babies and pets, and dinner times, and birthdays like the rest of us! The only animal here – is the UN and the USA failing to come to the aid of people who are being slaughtered by a maniacal President and his minions! It is about doing the right thing – even if it is hard to do. And saving the lives of 3 and 4 year old terrified children, mothers with newborns, grandparents and young men and women – should NOT be a hard decision to make.

    February 9, 2012 at 11:47 am | Report abuse |
    • Carlina

      *** I am sorry – this comment was directed @ someone who called these people "Animals who butcher their own" and an "Auto Immune Deficiency upon mankind". Disgraceful.

      February 9, 2012 at 11:50 am | Report abuse |
    • Brian

      And the Americans killed 600000 of our own during the civil war. It sorted itself out. The UN didn't bail us out.

      February 9, 2012 at 11:50 am | Report abuse |
    • OregonTom

      Blame Russia and China. It was there decision not to help.

      February 9, 2012 at 11:51 am | Report abuse |
    • Nick-o

      This stuff happens all the time. And everyone complains "where's America?" The UN is incompetent. NATO may aid via air strikes, but honestly, I do not support any USA ground game in Syria, Libya, N. Korea, Iran, ............................the list goes on forever. We cannot police the world!!!!!!!

      February 9, 2012 at 11:52 am | Report abuse |
  6. John Schwendler

    And this INTERNAL strife is our problem exactly how? I remain convinced that Americans don't get married to have children to provide to the US military for use and disposal as they see fit, under the guise of patriotism. Responding to a real threat, as opposed to a perceived one, or a political what-if, is fine. Do we invade Northern Ireland the next time the natives there get restless? This is a tragic war and civil unrest, but it is theirs, not ours.

    February 9, 2012 at 11:51 am | Report abuse |
    • Brian

      Absolutely... there is no threat from Syria to the US. The Arab nations have the capability to intervene... we are not their police force.

      February 9, 2012 at 11:55 am | Report abuse |
  7. Another voice

    I love the cencorship on here!

    February 9, 2012 at 11:51 am | Report abuse |
  8. D_NYC

    CARLINA.... GO AND HELP... Go sacrifice your money and life in there... Hopefully one of them will be thankful to your American body in the grave once eveything is over... Keep dreaming.

    February 9, 2012 at 11:51 am | Report abuse |
  9. Scottish Mama

    Who do the tanks belong to? Come on military and historian buffs.

    February 9, 2012 at 11:51 am | Report abuse |
  10. D_NYC

    Hi... For those of you who think it is our obligation to intervene and help the people in Syria, I have news for you... We will spend the money, sacrifice American lives, put ourselves in the middle of yet another worthless war, and guess what we will get out of it? NOTHING...

    These people do not stand for the values we stand for, these people will spit in our faces if they could, these people do not know the meaning of the words tolerance, respect and shame, not even among them, forget about Jews, Christians, Atheist, Mormons or ANY OTHER religious group.

    For them we Americans are just a group of infidels and imperialist who deserve the worst. So asking us for help is quite ridiculous. I have nothing against the Islam or Muslims, but they do have a lot against us and sadly their mentality is backwards: you are with us or you are against us... they do not believe in a society we all can co-exist and live based on our own beliefs...

    And it is sad, very sad indeed, that as of today we still have people in our country who don't realize the threat that this represents as more and more and more of them keep coming here.

    February 9, 2012 at 11:56 am | Report abuse |
    • Pouria

      You're making a very general argument, that is all muslims are against US and that they are intolerant against everyone else. It's true that there is much muslim resentment towards USA for their involvements around the world and particularly support of Israel's regime in occupation of Palestinian lands. But you simply can't say that all muslims hate America, because clearly there wouldn't be so much immigration to US if they really hated America. They don't support some US policies just as we don't support many decisions our government makes, but other than that they're normal and tolerant people with their own sets of beliefs. You also mentioned that some muslims celebrated 9/11. Well, I should say that there are ignorant, crazy people in every part of the world and the fact is most muslims mourned 9/11 along the rest of the world.
      http://penjihad.wordpress.com/2011/09/11/9-11-the-facts-the-fiction-and-the-emotions/
      http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Reactions_to_the_September_11_attacks

      February 9, 2012 at 12:57 pm | Report abuse |
  11. OregonTom

    Maybe Europe and the Arab league should handle it.

    February 9, 2012 at 11:58 am | Report abuse |
  12. Scottish Mama

    War, he-yall, What is it good for? Absolutely nothing.

    February 9, 2012 at 11:58 am | Report abuse |
  13. candace123

    so sad to see all those people being killed,but please leave AMERICANS out of it,haven't we had enough of our young men die in the middle east countries.They will never stop fighting,it ping pongs from one to another,then back again.WHY ARE WIE THE WORLDS POLICE LEAVE US ALONE WE DON'T WANT YOUR PROMBLEMS OR YOUR OIL LEAVE US IN PEACE

    February 9, 2012 at 11:58 am | Report abuse |
    • Brian

      well... I want the oil.... but I will gladly just pay for it and move along.

      February 9, 2012 at 11:59 am | Report abuse |
  14. ahmad dera'a

    arabs can deal with the syrian problem but if america scared from russia,china and iran this is the real problem

    February 9, 2012 at 12:00 pm | Report abuse |
  15. Brian

    Let the Arab nations (who all have a military) intervene. Let them sacrifice their children. I for one am done with the US sending our troops... and to further that aim I am going to throw in For Ron Paul (shameless plug) because he is the only guy I can trust to keep us out of this in the future.

    February 9, 2012 at 12:02 pm | Report abuse |
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